hello goodbye ..

the air is heavy in this place ..

it feels like i'm moving in water
   even to walk an effort
   to think even ..
..

we showed up
   because they will show up
   because You show up
   because we show up
      and wherever 2 or 3 get together
      with You in mind
         there You are
so we showed up ..

but this heaviness
is mashing my lungs
   hard to breathe ..
even my eyelids are resisting belief
   fighting this 'reality'

                  what is reality   ?      ..

You are reality ..

..
" remember me " You said
      as You broke Your body
      poured out Your bloody soul
         for us all ..

reality

..

turn the page


a faltering fumbling step
   or 2
then 3      more ..

a mumbled ' allelujah ' ..

then words take hold
the Spirit finds purchase
   in broken hearts
      just where the cracks show ..

Hope raises her head
   to look
   to see the 1 or 2 raised hands
   to watch as others join in          more allelujahs
      stronger now
      louder

and Spirit rises up
   swims through the heavy waters
   stirring up foamy surf
   shaking loose unbelief
calling Light into this present darkness
..

" this is my confidence
You've never failed me yet
great is You faithfulness
Your promise still stands "

we will trust You

         i will trust You

..

turn the page


and Heaven's shore welcomes the Newcomer
walking the water home on tippytoes
twirling
singing

free at last

goodbye hello
hello goodbye

see you, friend

..

                          i will trust You