erupt ..

how do i put words to it      ?
this pain
this anguish
this swelling heat inside me that wants to burn a hole in my life
this fire i cannot contain
   is breaking out
      and i want to let it

i want to let it
   burn a hole in my life

Jesus did ..
he gave his life to the fire
   that flew around him
   like some Wind
      unstilled
      vibrant
      intentioned
      powered

i don't know how to
i just want to
and i am
   in passion

normal .. not . .. .

hurt people
broken people
damaged people
bleeding people

trying to appear normal
to fit in
to not be cast out

sometimes the damage floats to the surface
   and we bleed out
      the blood saturates
         people see
                  they reach for gloves and mops

anger rises
   my head burns       red
      at me

i let them see !
   now i'm marked
   now i'm in not
   now i'm out

         have to go
                           start all over
                                                             again


maybe this time
i can keep the cover on
     staunch the flow

         look normal
                 accepted
                                          in