doom and hotcoal ..

so i met with church today
and as i sat there and listened to this often-wise person speak out of and in to Isaiah 6
   about the freakoutish (my word) event
   about Jesus being the live coal that burned away Isaiah's sin
   about how God wants to use Isaiah even though he's guilty as hell
      and he thinks he's upended and doomed ..
.. .     .


i was thinking of this friend i wish was there with me to hear this wisdom
and how even though they don't do church
   they would likely appreciate the realness of what the speaker was speaking
.. .
 .. .. .     .


and then i walked that right back
and thought
   this is for me ..
   so like why are they coming immediately to mind
   when i'm the one
      here am i
      it's me
..

and i repented
and listened again

..

" the incredible thing about turning to Jesus is that nothing in your life is wasted "
      or similar
Jesus uses it all
the broken
the bruised
the ugly
the wickedness
the lying cheating accusing scapegoating lustful hateful spiteful ..
  he redeems it all

..

and there was i
“ It’s all over! I am doomed, for I am a sinful man. I have filthy lips, and I live among a people with filthy lips. "

and then there was this hotburning coal
..