Saturday, March 25, 2017

deconstructing god - heavenly palaces and shacks in the woods ..

well, who woulda thought i'd be here on this topic today ..
.. not i, said the wolf

used to be i wouldn't ever have considered reading ' heretical ' crud like this
most of that position having been based on
   the comments of the people-in-power in my own religious corner of my world
   and the indoctrination i underwent as a budding badass fundamentalist
      in the days when fundamentalism was really hardcore ..
         i cut teeth on a biblebelt buckle ..
            those were the days we considered billy graham a liberal ..
            the billy graham
..

so, knowing something of the up-in-armsedness of the ruling religious right elite in this country, i mindlessly sidelined The Shack as a useless, and probably deceptive, misleading, and possibly dangerous, attempt to make light of Godstuff, to reduce it to a liberalized pop version, suck all the umph out of it and render it on a plate of unidentifiable mush ..


.. shouldn't have done that ..
if there's anything i should've learned in the last decade+ it's to not simply rely on them ( or anyone ) to determine my journey, my path ..
it's my path
..

i don't remember what it was that nudged me in the direction of the book, but whatever it was turned into an experience i will not be able to adequately describe here, or anywhere  ..

the book was, for me, a massive, paragon-ic, think-altering, refreshing, confirmatory release of a lifetime of burdensome slavish commitment to a god who is sovereignly all-powerful and vindictive and will get ' his ' pound of flesh in the end ..
that's about as concise as i can be

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talk about shocked ..
i was moved
   radically shaken
while a long wide smile warmed the inside of my soul ..
this was a wonderful telling, almost defying words
   this worded story that was never meant to be read by the public us
and i experienced a deep-running pleasure that simply wanted to be in this for a long time ..
i didn't want it to end
..

i considered not writing about it
leaving it alone for fear of ruining the power of this story welltold

since reading the book, i've recommended it, given it to 2 friends, begun reading it with 2 other young friends, been to the movie and re-been with 2 friends ..
i've also discussed it with several people
   a daring move in some instances where i know the folk are like i used to be ..

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i really haven't read the naysayings
i don't intend to either
i heard enough of their banter ..

i can only imagine the stench of their ire
some squatting by a fire, intentionally sharpening their swords
while others plan their rebuff, complete with bible verses and doctrines-so-called
others blocking 'friends' and unfollowing people they no longer respect because now they've shown themselves to be unworthy of God and the true Guardians of the True Truth ..
imagine the gall of attempting to reduce the eternal unchangeable doctrines of God to a storybook ! ..
..

i decided to put a word in the fire

i saw the Lord high and lifted up
and the train of glory filled the space
a glorious and magnificent God
who inspired wonder and delight and marvel and a warm glowing recognition of the god who was there all along ..
   only hidden from sight by the mud-splashed spectacles
   diffused into a thousand rays of unintelligible light,
   scattered all across the landscape, like so much wind-blown pollen,
   infecting ..

imagine .. we infected people with a god of our own making
   for fear somebody else's god would become Chief Infector

and it took an unheard-of plebe, writing a fictional rendition of his Godthoughts for his children with narry an intention of publishing, to undo the wickedness of our theology, unhinge the fearsome god from his place in the throneroom where we tethered him and cast him out
allowing us the room to imagine ( again ), in childish wonder, the God that is there, here ..
the God who is grounded in love
   all other ' attributes ' taking their lead from right there
who loves us all as God's own
   creatures created in the image and likeness of Godself
      created to be like God
allowing us to breathe again
   to breathe-in the swift winsome powerful spirit of this God who simply will not let us go

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i can imagine the stress of the ' heresy ! ' criers
.. their walls have been breached, their security undone, their influence threatened
   what else could they do ?
and it has been done in the form of a story
   not a theological treatise or magnum opus or systematic theology
a story
   told in the genre of the average
      accessible
      understandable
      relatable
      recognizable

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first thing that sMacks you across the cheek is the presentation of God as a black woman ..
masterful
leaves your/my religion reeling from the blow ..
i imagine there are many who threw the book out at that point ..
   but, besides the fact that god is spirit, engendering no gender,
      and therefore can either be portrayed as ' it ' or more sensibly as he or she
   there is a purpose in the story for the female rendering
      and the later-on male rendering
         if we'd just read along long enough to get it
..

and then there's this unmatched unity
a shocking agreement
almost goofy cameraderie among the 3
   Papa, Sarayu, Jesus
an infused interchangeable exchange of places in an untiring dance of mutual interpleasure and co-recognition

..

obvious to the story is an insatiable desire of this God to embrace every last human ever ..
in the words of Mack/Papa
" is there anyone you're not especially fond of ? "
and Papa's response that they are all my children ..
.. even Mack's severely abusive father
   yea, even the horrible abducter and killer of Mack's Missy
      of whom Papa said to Mack, in explaining why Mack must forgive even him,
      " he too is my child; i desire to redeem him too " ..
         shocking to many of us
         unheard-of ..
..

the magnanimous untiring love of this God for all creation, all humanity, is entirely shocking ..

we pen our tomes on the ' love of God '
but i have barely ever seen anything so clarifying
   so refreshing
   so blatantly easygoing
   so pure ..
it stands-out to me as the confirming of my own ' wish ' for this kind of God to be real
   to be the God that is there
      in the face of all the wrathful pontificating from the pulpit and the gilded seminary halls ..
..

a final comment, and a more personal one ..
my favorite part of the book, the place where my heart burst and tears flowed freely
   was when Jesus invited Mack to walk with him
      on the water
   and they ran, laughing all the while ..
it's significant to me because i believe that's precisely what Jesus wanted Peter
   ( and others ) to experience
the freedom to be truly human, empowered
   as God intended in the creation event ..
vibrant images of the selfsame CreatorGod
endowed with the practical privilege of representing this God in the Earth that was ' good ' in the making
looking-after the masterfully mysterious oddity of this strange Earth-creation
   that baffled the Watchers as they watched ..
.. " what is this human that you consider them so ?? "
..

as for the theology
i find very little in the story to undermine what i have come to see is God ..
   admittedly i had to sideline and trash a lot of what i was taught
   as an upandcoming christian expert ..
   but that happened long before i read the book
      i had already parked that god, took the keys and walked away ..
this is the God i've come to know and love and follow wholeheartedly


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i wish i was able to do justice to this book ( and movie )
i only wish you would forgive my paltry attempt to give it the honour it so deserves
and read the book
and see the movie
please ..

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a contextual note:-
   and please take this in the spirit given ..
i have spent a large part of my life immersing myself in theology ..
it has been my overriding concern and primary interest for the last 30 years
and i've given myself to little else as a pastime/'hobby'/interest ..
so that when i say this book is one of the most remarkable things i've ever read about God, that statement means a whole lot ..

i sincerely ask you to read it ..

it will bless you immeasurably
if you are willing to put aside any preconceptions and simply approach it as a story about God

i've tried to impress you with the significance of this little book ..
i hope you respond ..

peace to you

Wednesday, March 15, 2017

a wink and a starwalk ..

i pass this star
that planet ..
there must be thousands
   millions ! of them
it doesn't matter that i don't know their Earthnames
i never had the time but to glance as i ran ..

run ??
is that what this is ?

i'm simply astounded ..
far too marvelous to word ..

look at that !!
.. wow ! look at that over there
.. i provide no response to my exclamations
it's like my jaw is locked-in, permanent agape


and i think, this is almost like when your life ' flashes before you eyes ' ..
you're going to be in an accident in about 3 seconds
and immediately your mind grabs a handful of memories from your life and tosses them
   scatters them before you on some unseen screen
   all scrambled
a maddening warp-speed playback that explodes your life
a reverse-dream that distills 60 years into 5 seconds
and there's no time to unscramble anything ..
just see ..

except this is no ' my life ' rerun
this is an incredulous 5-second - or 5 weeks or 5 lightyears .. time seems irrelevant now - journey out of Earthspace towards Home ..

and i can only think it must all have been arranged by my Friend
just to allow me a wink in time to be utterly overcome by his creation wonder ..
a gift
a kind of ' welcome home ' present

i'll see him in a bit
..
and a slow, lazy smile ..

Tuesday, March 14, 2017

thanks, no thanks, and seasonal thanks ..

i'm going to try to say this as concisely as i can
    being a one that tends to words
..

i'm not sure if i'd be writing this right now if things were different
   i'd like to think so
      but sometimes i fool my self

..

i want to thank God for a positive response to something that has been concerning me for some weeks, and for which i received some closure today

God be praised ..

..

now this ..
i reminded myself before the day's events
that God is to be thanked
   regardless of the outcome
..
my thankful heart cannot be determined by the ' good ' or ' bad ' outcomes of life
   although many times it actually is
      = fail

God is God and is not blamable for the negative outcomes in my life ..
as a child of god, God desires nothing but good for me
   ever ..
      get that

God loves me regardless of the things i do or say
and God's love for me does not ' wax and wane ' based on my particular mood or 'tude or whether i ' said grace ' in the restaurant

God isn't like us
God is ever faithful
failing never ..
   the failures are all on my part

so that God is good
all the time
all
the
time

and even when i get ' bad ' news
   God is the same God God was before i got the news
..

God never ever wills bad for me nor orchestrates evil in my life, whether it be accidents or illnesses or financial distress or marriage problems or any other ' bad ' you can bring to mind ..
ever
every good and perfect gift comes from Godfather
and there is not a shadow of turning in God

don't ever accuse God
God is not to blame for the destruction damage loss failures in our life
God wants good and only good for us

therefore
regardless of the trials of our day
we must remember to be thankful to God
   who does not desire the blood of goats or of a red heifer
   but only desires to have our loving
      attention to the Godlove
      that flows incessantly in our direction
   wants us to jump-in and be carried-away
      overwhelmed, infused with the loveSpirit
      that wants to drown this world in
      living water
..


be thankful
in season
out of season ..
thanksgiving is not a seasonal thing

thank you God

Sunday, March 12, 2017

hidden beauty and true human ..

there are 110 draft posts sitting there
one i've been struggling with for a week
   which is a derivative of another failed draft ..
they will all have to wait ..
..

i've been sicky recently
but decided to brave the this-year unusual 35 degrees
and head-out to one of my favourite places for sunday meet ..
and i'm ever so glad
'cause what came down the pipe was refreshingly genuine theology
   for someone (me) tired of the same 'ol
   and longing for real spirited inspired truth a la hip
      no playing games

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i'm certain i'm not going to be able to render the talk in any justifiable way
but i'll post a couple thoughts i managed to scribble down ..
   i couldn't keep-up with the many poignant quotables

the sermon was about beauty and the fact that beauty is usually hidden
and what we see as beauty is undeserving of the truly beautiful
   which often needs to be discovered for its beneath-the-surfaceness ..


the subject was Jesus the man
the texts were Isaiah 53:2 ff. and the end of Luke 23
..

the Isaiah passage ..

He grew up under the Lord’s gaze
    a tender green shoot from a root in dry ground.
There was nothing beautiful or majestic in his appearance,
    nothing to attract us to him.
He was despised and rejected
    a man of sorrows, acquainted with deepest grief.
We turned our backs on him and looked the other way.
He was despised,
    and we did not care.
And yet it was our weaknesses he carried,
    it was our sorrows that weighed him down ..
and we thought his troubles were a punishment from God,
    a punishment for his own sins !
Truth is he was pierced for our rebellion,
    crushed for our sins.
He was beaten so we could be whole.
    He was whipped so we could be healed.

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a nearquote ..
" God sent Jesus and he appeared in humility
      and it unnerved us ..
we expected pomp and splendour so we could justify our own desires for a king
   instead we got a servant
      who washes feet "

a nearquote ..
" the churches have made themselves look kingly, empire-like
      rather than like Jesus in his humility " ..
because we want empire ..
   which begs the question .. when people enter our churchspace
      do they get the savour of Jesus the humble servant ? ..

nearquote ..
" we want a king
      and Jesus shows up and calls us back to our humanity " ..
   and this is loaded with the righteous truth
   that we so unlike what we are in our own humanity
      that we look for a Saul rather than a David
         like we did back then
      we want regal and impressive to replace the ' despicable me ' i see in myself ..

nearquote ..
" when you learn to love the hideous, you'll learn to hate the ' beautiful ' " ..
i'll leave that one hanging ..

nearquote ..
" we despised Love ..
we condemned ourselves
   when we looked in the mirror of His face and saw us there ..
      and we despised Him for it "

nearquote ..
" Jesus lowered himself to love us
      and as a result we lowered our opinion of him "

nearquotes ..
" we would have considered him a god worthy of worship
      if he had looked like one "

" he could have amazed us with display of cosmic marvels
      but he came and washed our feet "

" the theologians say he lay aside the beautiful things of God to come here ..
      Jesus didn't see it that way
         he saw it as stepping into beauty
         and revealed the beauty of us "

" the scars made Jesus even more beautiful "

" Jesus lowered himself for us
      but he didn't consider it a sacrifice
         he sees the beauty in us "

" i see you "

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i rest

what a beautiful message .. .

Thursday, March 2, 2017

9 lives, remembering, recognition and fullfilling ..

being human ..
if somehow we can get a grip on what that means and who we are and are meant to be .. .

seems to me that must be the pursuit of my life
whatever there is left of it
   as in numbering my days
looking for meaning and purpose and real
and longevity in my finity

what else is there .. ?

everything else is chasing the wind
   rather than letting that powerful Wind move me
seems to me life is radically more, shockingly more than what we're nurtured into by our progenitors and peers and professionals
   and professors in the pulpit ..

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we are living temples of the Creator
.. imagine that .. use your inagination
let it swish around in your mouth as if tasting a vintage wine
inages of the God that brought it all here
descendants of the original images
   formed from the very dirt of the cosmos
      by the very God of the cosmos
   in a very personal intimate fashioning
      embodying the very image and likeness
         of the hands that personally personalized the dirt and dust ..
what a phenomenal imagining

and to dust i shall return
this form transforning again into the present image
   of the Creator Man in heaven
endowed a 'brother' .. a brother !
almost unthinkaable
ineffable
   totally lost for words ..
   no matter the powerful WindSpirit is able to take the ineffable of our mind
      and transform it into meaning
for God knows the mind of the Spirit that knows our mind

and there, RighHanded to God, lives and moves and has his being the Man in whose image we were made

and while i type these words my mind is roiled at its impotence
   in the presence of a Presence it cannot fathom
only encounter
only embrace
only lean full-weighted into
only bless and be blessed

all my presumed meaning becomes futile
lost in the clutter and meaninglessness of the spacedusted flotsam we call life
which is life not
life lost
life confused by pleasure and posture and pretense and prosperity and property and progress-so-called

somehow i have to find that Man
be infused by him
transformed again into His image
be swallowed entirely
refashioned
such that my talk of 'christian' loses significance in the face of true Meaning
and i fall headlong into Love
the same Love that envisioned me when He thoughtfully gathered red dirt and shaped and contoured and imaged and breathed and spoke ..
that Love

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it may well be that i'm on life 9 in cat speak
i lost count
regardless .. whether 9 or 7, it's high time i awoke out of the Earthslumber to intention that drives me to newlife in the Christ person
   the Lord Christ
   the original Son of Human
drowned in His essence
baptized into a resurrection that transports me out of Worldview into Hisview
empowers me to overcome the false human i was raised to be
   encumbered by the utterly false systems of the world in which i live
and to live in, but not of, this worldhome
fully engaged in the heartbeat of God
   for justice and mercy and embrace of all of life
honouring the intention of Creator God for all life to be 'good', fruitful
   in a shared environment of coexistence and maturity
      and fullness and prosperity
         all of it reflecting the God who will soon again be all, in all

to be human is to reflect the True Human who lived and moved and had his being here for a mere 30-something earthyears
to be truly human means reaching for his mind
   the mind of Christ
informing my encumbered self by his spirit
my spirit overcome entirely
submitted entirely
faithfully following
disciple in the moving shadow of Master Jesus
seeking his face
yearning for his filling
so that i am entirely lost in the overpowering aroma of Presence

this is my life 9 vision
were it to be a day or 10 years

i desire to spend it till it is enirely spent
to lose my self daily in the overflowing of his Person
soaking my self in the wonder of him
trying my best to overflow that into the present lifebeing of those i encounter so they too will recognize for themselves the immaculate person of Jesus
recognize in thhemselves their true humanity as exemplifed in the pristine Man
   who is the original Image
   their image
and image that

what else is there .. . .     .

we mistakenly exchanged the faithfullness of faith for ' belief '
some preset set of tenets and policies and facts-so-called
Jesus was faithfull to his God enirely
   even when he doubted

some scholars posit that many of the places where ' faith of Christ ' or ' faith in Christ ' is presently presented in our version of the bible, it should more correctly be rendered ' the faithfulness of Christ '
   a thought that bears serious consideration
   a thought that redirects my assent-christianity towards a faith
   that speaks to allegiance
      reflected in every waking (and hopefully sleeping/unconscious) moment
      remaking my mind (Romans 12.1,2)
      revamping wholsale my life
      retuning my ear and refocusing my eye
      refreshing my heart
      remaking me


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Lord Christ
i want all of you
i believe
help me in my unbelief