Sunday, July 26, 2020

disciple ing ..

sunday ..
i really wish i was assembling with family and friends 

i have been abundantly blessed in my family here 
i feel (and I'm gradually convinced) like i belong .. 
(the gradual thing is my own hesitation at believing people really care about me - i suck it up like baby on mother's milk      it gives me life      i try not to take too much notice of myself, but the affirmation is nothing short of energizing      it's just hard to believe that the church that Jesus built actually exists in such a vivid form - i thought, surely it is not found in purity today, having lost its savor through the centuries to political and powerful and private ambition of its leadership ..) .. 

we all belong, i think      we've just lost our way .. we've become deluded and disillusioned      we have outgrown our innocence, our innate identity, way too fast, and create substitutes to hide our fear at being lost      we do not know who we are, or what our purpose in this life 

i have fallen into Grace in these recent years, and am able to admit to value in me, worth, having been found in favor with GodFather      not that he recently came to that position   simply put, i recently discovered it for myself, and surely the same holds true for all humanity   we are just lost to it, as i said 

tragedy 

so then      Jesus ..      
to re-member us, remind us of our identity - icons, images and likenesses of the living God ..      
him walking with us to be seen as humanity-in-its-fullness, learning to be human, and then unfolding his arms to embrace his humanity - us 

it's okay       
we are lost      but there's this Shepherd who will search us out, even the one
maybe especially the one

and we/i, who have seen the scales fall from our eyes and been un-blinded from our lostness, have the privilege of touching the blind around us, in complete harmony with their disillusionment      for i was blind once

and the things i say      and the things i do      and the way i live in this now      and the thing i allow myself to behold with my eye and ear       all color-in a canvas for my community of Earthpeople to behold for themselves      and speak louder-than-words to the humanity i now embrace in Jesus, Son of Human 

perhaps some of that will spark re-cognition in one, or three      and they will reach out to touch, to see for themselves what is this light, this indescribable aura of integrity, of truth, of peace, of true humanity       unfiltered 

perhaps that is the flavor of 'discipleship'      
the taste of Jesus in the face of another human
the aroma of genuine humanity-to-the-bone as witnessed in the Jesus whose spirit is jealous for me      
      as for you


peace to you

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