Monday, March 23, 2020

Your virus ..

Lord Christ
to whom every knee will soon bend    in love
to whom every tongue will readily confess you as Lord in their native voice

teach us to ..       wait, you did ..
help us to have your attitude of unity    in love
to be moved to treat others better than we treat ourselves

may we carry in the forefront of our heart's mind your move towards us
   by emptying yourself
      taking the form of a slave and becoming flesh
   humbling yourself
      even to the place of death
         even to the place of cross-death
            for us

may we too look for ways to empty ourselves in the direction of others    in love

help me then
to be watchful
to discern
to listen for your voice
to be wanting always to obey
to move    recognizing your ever-present presence
to reach out
to welcome
to touch
to embrace

to encourage
to come alongside
to compassion
to heal
to speak loving-kindness
to challenge wicked intention
to stand against injustice
to stand for righteousness
to walk with       through

You as my strength
my energy
my presence
my intention
my motivation
my vision
my eyes
my ears
my tongue
my feet
my hands
my heart
my mind
my resource
my source

to be used
for reconciliation
for peace
for provision
for light
for goodness
for relief
for comfort
for encouragement
for unity

as a basin
as a weathervane
as a recliner
as a peaceful space
as a loaf of bread
as a pleasing aroma
as a rock
as a rainbow
as a stroll along a wooded path
as a fragrant flower in full bloom
as a walk on the water
as a healing touch
as a pleasant memory
as a ray of sunshine
as a mouthful of cool water
as a shade tree
as a bed of thick grass
as a sky of shape-shifting clouds
as a bird call
as a sign of your promises and your power to carry them out
as a touchstone for your faithfulness in every kind of trial
as a river for immersion into a pure heart
as a reminder of your unsurpassable and indescribable and
   unfathomable love    vulnerably displayed on the cross
as a path leading Your Way
as a window open to new life
as a fresh breeze of your spirit as you come and go in ways we may yet learn
   always flavored with love

wash my heart's hands
sanitize the mind of me
distance me from evil
create a space between me and
   violence
   judgmentalism
   blame
   estrangement
   manipulation
   chaos
   hurtful words
   abuse
   anger
   hatred
   prejudice
   idolatry

renew my spirit
refresh my soul
   as I look ardently for you in the face of that one and this one
   and her and him

open my heart's arms to embrace the You i see in them
   the me I see in them
   the them I see in me
   You

move me out of private space into their space
including them
   in my time
   in my focus
   in my energy
   in my praying
   in my living
      and my moving
      and my having my being

may I be your virus
   infecting people everywhere with your love
   passing on kindness
      and gentleness
      and gratitude
      and joy
      and mercy
      and peace
      and patience
      and trust
      and hope
         gracefullly
            your love rising in them like sap in its season
            producing verdant foliage and every kind of good fruit

and may the whole world be overfilled with the presence of You, filling everything everywhere with your goodness through the grace of our Lord Christ, Jesus

we appeal to You through him the Frontrunner and Fullfiller of our faith

Friday, March 20, 2020

i saw God today ..

i saw God today
she was walking upstreet with a bag of donated food
   and now God could eat

i saw God sitting on a step in the sun
talking

and as God ate God told the dreadful story of being cheated out of the place They had paid for
and now the lights were off and the water stopped running
and God was looking for a bathroom before walking back
to wherever she would go

" do you know where i can find a bathroom?
they'll arrest me for exposure if i go in a public place, you know "  ..
..

i saw God limping today
her face twisted painfully with each right-step
a sick-looking bruise bleeding ugly pus above her knee where she fell in the road
heading for ER right after the food bag
limping ..
and God gave her a walking stick he found God-only-knows-where

" is there anything besides this?
i don't eat pork
   for religious reasons, you understaand "
      God said
and someone witfully posed " are you a Jew then ? "
   ducking artfully in pretense against his
   jabbing muslim glance
..


i wonder what God thought about our venture into the street today
bags of bbq and chips
squatting on the steps of the lawoffice
discussing viruses and God and the madness to come

as God vociferously swore at his unseen attacker
   walking violently upstreet
   swinging his arms in anger

and a couple walk up smiling thanks for the bag
shaking hands in rebellion
smiling
and promising to come again
..

i saw God carry a box of leftover goodies across the street for suppertime when God would eat at Sally's place
.. poor Sally .. she's tired, but she's going strong
      rebel in the face of despair
.. and God smiles, and pulls up a weary chair

i saw God give his bbq sandwich to another homeless person
   'cause she didn't want to leave her stuff
   to go get her own ..

i saw God mumbling to herself as she walked down the street
pulling her cart full of her life for today
   almost as if there was hope for
   tomorrow ..
   .. almost

.. God was everywhere today
         right in the mix
feeding
   and being fed
talking
   and being spoken to
listening
   and hearing
offering
   and accepting
hurting
   and blessing
tired and dirty and mostly lost at the menacing madness everywhere


perhaps i'll see God again tomorrow ..

i think i'd like that

Saturday, January 18, 2020

alone ..

i see you
   standing stopped
      there
fiddling with some fidget
   from your pack
all alone
   as usually you are
      when i see you
         standing stopped
            there
..
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what have you there                 ?
what do you there                     ?

who are you                              ? 
   and why are you all packed   ?
       all alone                             ?
          as usual                           ?

   why is you usual                    ?
      alone                                   ?

..

what is your question               ?
      ?

who will you ask
   alone                                     ?




Monday, November 18, 2019

been there/done that ..

here's a prickly thought ..

if we're going to accept the biblical accounting of both the comprehensive attack on Jesus
   and his unviolated purity in response to that attack
then we're going to have to face the fundamental challenge to our minds
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   from a human standpoint ..
      and he was human


say that again
   to believe that Jesus was 'tempted in all points as we are'
   while free from submission to any temptation
      is a mind warp for us in our fallenness ..

         but it is a necessary faithhold ..
   we need it
because the source of our comfort in the attacks we ourselves face is the robust understanding that this Son of Humanity (Son of Man) understands our specific plight
   because he himself was confronted in every way that we are confronted
      and successfully endured         
                                                            ( read Hebrews 4:14,15 )
..

let that soak in

selah ~


there is great comfort in that
and hope
and energy ..

our Liberator is not an advisor
he is our Forerunner
he has gone the distance
   a far greater distance than we will ever understand or experience

so then
   we can trust this Jesus
      intimately
to walk with us in understanding through our stuff

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postscript :-

the thing that makes Christianity so different
   is the present caring intimacy of Jesus in our human experience

Wednesday, October 23, 2019

rocks and bones



rocks hurt
they break bones                         shatter my humanity
..
why cast them at me            ?
did you lose your mirror      ?     did you lose your humanity   ?      

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Saturday, September 14, 2019

erupt ..

how do i put words to it      ?
this pain
this anguish
this swelling heat inside me that wants to burn a hole in my life
this fire i cannot contain
   is breaking out
      and i want to let it

i want to let it
   burn a hole in my life

Jesus did ..
he gave his life to the fire
   that flew around him
   like some Wind
      unstilled
      vibrant
      intentioned
      powered

i don't know how to
i just want to
and i am
   in passion







Sunday, September 1, 2019

normal .. not . .. .

hurt people
broken people
damaged people
bleeding people

trying to appear normal
to fit in
to not be cast out

sometimes the damage floats to the surface
   and we bleed out
      the blood saturates
         people see
                  they reach for gloves and mops

anger rises
   my head burns       red
      at me

i let them see !
   now i'm marked
   now i'm in not
   now i'm out

         have to go
                           start all over
                                                             again


maybe this time
i can keep the cover on
     staunch the flow

         look normal
                 accepted
                                          in