abuse, children and the heart of God ..

i'm repeatedly reminded of the sexual abuse that apparently rampages
much more so than i ever imagined .. still can't imagine
and it seems the reminders draw closer to ' home ' each time

sex is an issue close to the heart of God
it is God's gift to his creatures and, in our case at least, the ultimate intention is unity, oneness, a core concern of God
God even intimates that in scriptures that speaks to Christ's relationship with the church
so that it carries with it a scent of ' holy ' ..
that ultimate intimacy-forming interaction that provides for physical and emotional highs points us to a spiritual intimacy with Godself somehow

to take that beneficient blessing and twist it into a dehumanizing instrument of torture against a defenseless child has got to be one of the foremost evils of our race ..
absolutely

the immense damage to the psyche is immeasurable .. seems to me only God is able to heal such wounds ..
but it does speak to the nobility of the human spirit that those so abused could walk on, bearing in their body the mangles that must have hurt so, and for so long

for those who have not been able to do that, i hurt ..
the damage to their mind, the intolerable nights, the howling darknesses that block intimacy, the ' guilt ' they drag into every room .. sometimes is unhealable it seems, leaving a dysfunctional mind and a spirit forever clawing its way out ..

for me, there are no words to such an abused one
no words
they are to be loved, doubly so, silently, compassionately, with all the Godlove i can muster

i look to be more aware and more available, more open to young people, and to older people who've borne abuse on the inside for years, never able to release it to someone
God helping me

the words of Jesus scream ..
 “ Offenses will certainly come, but woe to the one they come through!
It would be better for them if a millstone were hung around their neck and they were thrown into the sea than for them to cause one of these little ones to stumble. "