my recompense ..

one day
when all the weights are shifted and the scales of Justice balanced
it may well be ' Judgment ' in a way we didn't expect
   or hear from a pulpit

it's quite possible that ' recompense ' will take-on the appearance of each person we have abused ..
those very people that suffered somehow at my hand
   will look me in the eye and remind me of
   who i was and what i did

and the effects that deed or word fomented in the life of that person
   and in the lives of the people connected to them
      seen in the events that flowed out of that one evil
will become very clear to me

i will suffer my own recompense for having ascended to the place of Authority over that person ..

"for with the judgment you use you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you "       Jesus

reputation and character, and God's love ..

recently i've been experiencing blogger's lock ..
it's similar to writer's block
it's in the brain ink .. either the inkwell is dry or the nib is clogged

the possible reasons for that are several, and/or any combination thereof
nevertheless i'll keep trying

`|`

there's a broad disconnect between our reputation and our character, as per the old saying ..
who we are is usually quite a toss from who people think we are ..
we're quite the liar, no ?


the only thing that is able to span that divide is sheer blindness ..
just can't see it

love is blind

it sees it, but it doesn't

" .. even while we were yet sinners Christ died for us. "
   .. in our sin
became our sin
   mine
   while i was/am in my sin

" greater love hath no man than this .."

i'm no good
and i know it

but God loves me yet

God doesn't love me because of anything lovable in me
but because it is God that's doing the loving

and God
   is
love
..

i am loved
somehow ..