here now ..

this craggy trail up wears my skin, coloured by my blood, drains my strength, assaults my trust

much of me is visible to any that would follow this trail - piece here, spot there, ashy remains of some dark night .. or 2

some say the journey is more significant than the destination, but that comment needs balance - not for the goal i wouldn't be here, that's for sure
icy blasts push me further into the sharp, hard space
one eye peeps, looking for some hope-bearing ray of pure light

miles to go ..

have to press on, for my life lies ahead yet
behind me is what's behind; i'll not be going back there ..
can't .. it's a dead trail
i'm sure i wouldn't even if i could
here is where it's at
always here
but i keep missing here for there - over there, out there, up there, back there
while all the while i should simply have been here, wherever here was at the time ..
present ..
" here, teacher " ..

there is a there, up ahead, and more further on, maybe more yet, in the distance
and i look there, occasionally, reminding my self of why i'm here
but it's here i want to be, really
here i need to be

i can really only be here
Master, help me to be
be
here
to recognize here as my now, and to find the greatest amount of life in it

the wealth of you awaits me .. here  now  presently ..
your presence in my present
there is no other real existence ..

to exist
to be
experiencing you in me .. now  here  in your fullness

i long to see your face - o help that to be the hope of my soul
but until then let me feel your breath on my shoulder, hear you breathe, hear you speak, feel your love warming the depths of me .. now  here ..
like now

inspire me .. here  now
that i may find grace and strength to push ahead

there's only so much of me left, but it's yours
and whatever else of flesh the trail tears from me, whatever else of blood it draws
it's for you ..

help me to make it so
help me to want to exhaust whatever life there is for you, your kingdom .. now  here
wherever here and now finds me

may i be all in
every ounce, every spark of energy, flash of thought
all in the now
you energizing me through and through
the aura of me radiating your love outward, your peace, your presence

overtake me
absorb me into you such that only you is left of me for anyone to see

here    now