lost ..

i'm so naive
so unknowing, ignorant
and i find myself being fairly frequently shocked
and then shocked at me, at my shockness
at my naivete

i met this houseless person
surface conversations
then this morning i sat and asked them a few questions
she mentioned she had children
i asked how many
she said ... 60
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i swallowed that
thought i'd misunderstood
tried again
similar answer
said she had multiple pregnancies each time
.... .   ......... . .. ... .  
her face was dead straight
she was totally serious
i was .. lost in my head
i actually tried to figure out how that was possible
for a minute or 2

...
i have so much to learn

i'm so frekin' lost